Musings

What is all this for?

As the rainy season starts, my moods start to shift again. I’ve been trying my best to fight this downward spiral, but it’s always been very difficult. And whenever I fail, like what is happening now, I can’t help but feel even more ashamed, frustrated, and hopeless. I feel a whole bunch of feelings at… Continue reading What is all this for?

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Musings

Changing the Script and Finding Words That Heal

These days, it's a lot harder for me to find the right words to say when trying to comfort people who are struggling or dealing with heartaches. It's not because I don't care enough, but because I don't want to make the situation worse. And so I always have to ask myself a number of… Continue reading Changing the Script and Finding Words That Heal

Gratitude Diary

Entry 22: Happier in the Skin I’m In

Since I was diagnosed with nummular dermatitis in the summer of 2016, it has been difficult to do some of the outdoor things I enjoy doing, like camping, trekking, swimming, and soaking up the sun. It was only a month ago when I started feeling some relief. It has been a month of calm skin,… Continue reading Entry 22: Happier in the Skin I’m In

Gratitude Diary

Entry 21: Learning to Rest

One of my 2018 resolutions is to learn to rest. I spent most of 2017 working so much, too much even, that I pretty much got burnt out by the end of the year. It wasn't easy letting go of the things that kept me busy and gave me a sense of purpose. Though difficult,… Continue reading Entry 21: Learning to Rest

Gratitude Diary

Entry 19: Cocktails and Convos

Most of my evenings are uneventful. Usually, they're spent indoors working on a side project or binge-watching something on Netflix. But now and then, I get a little social and 'out of control.' And by that I mean having at least two drinks and staying out past 11 p.m. Nights like that don't happen for… Continue reading Entry 19: Cocktails and Convos

Musings

Control and Connectedness

Yesterday in therapy, K (my therapist) and I had our best session yet. It left me feeling relieved knowing our hard work is paying off. At one point, we looked back at my progress and revisited my goals. K has always expressed her confidence in me. Sometimes I feel she may be overestimating my abilities,… Continue reading Control and Connectedness