As the rainy season starts, my moods start to shift again. I’ve been trying my best to fight this downward spiral, but it’s always been very difficult. And whenever I fail, like what is happening now, I can’t help but feel even more ashamed, frustrated, and hopeless. I feel a whole bunch of feelings at… Continue reading What is all this for?
These days, it's a lot harder for me to find the right words to say when trying to comfort people who are struggling or dealing with heartaches. It's not because I don't care enough, but because I don't want to make the situation worse. And so I always have to ask myself a number of… Continue reading Changing the Script and Finding Words That Heal
Since I was diagnosed with nummular dermatitis in the summer of 2016, it has been difficult to do some of the outdoor things I enjoy doing, like camping, trekking, swimming, and soaking up the sun. It was only a month ago when I started feeling some relief. It has been a month of calm skin,… Continue reading Entry 22: Happier in the Skin I’m In
One of my 2018 resolutions is to learn to rest. I spent most of 2017 working so much, too much even, that I pretty much got burnt out by the end of the year. It wasn't easy letting go of the things that kept me busy and gave me a sense of purpose. Though difficult,… Continue reading Entry 21: Learning to Rest
Most of my evenings are uneventful. Usually, they're spent indoors working on a side project or binge-watching something on Netflix. But now and then, I get a little social and 'out of control.' And by that I mean having at least two drinks and staying out past 11 p.m. Nights like that don't happen for… Continue reading Entry 19: Cocktails and Convos
Yesterday in therapy, K (my therapist) and I had our best session yet. It left me feeling relieved knowing our hard work is paying off. At one point, we looked back at my progress and revisited my goals. K has always expressed her confidence in me. Sometimes I feel she may be overestimating my abilities,… Continue reading Control and Connectedness